to be real

This is so true!

I found this photo by Sarah from My Four Hens Photography on her facebook page the other day.  It made me stop. And think. Think about how silly I am sometimes to stress about totally unimportant stuff. How I want to do a million things at once and then I end up with million things half done. Or not even half done.

Last Sunday I supposed to go to a book club. The truth is, I haven’t read a whole book since last September.  And of course I didn’t read the book the other ladies read. I even didn’t have to read the book to attend but I somewhere deep knew that it is going to be another meeting which I “skip”. First I was stressing about it (a lot)  but then I just let go. Weekends are the only time when the whole family gets together. We had only 2 dinners last week as a family together due to our crazy busy schedules and I so missed just being together with people I love. We spent the afternoon hiking in a local park and then instead of going to the meeting, I just hopped on my bike and biked for an hour and half. It was the longest and hardest workout I’ve done so far on the computrainer (it is a very real simulation of road biking). I felt guilty for not going but on the other hand so happy that I did something just for myself.

I’ve set up a little goal for myself for the next few weeks. I want to get back to things I like to do – to take more pictures, to try new dishes again and actually to do my weekly menu plan once again (this one is on a right path as I have this week already planned on ). To start and finish little projects around the house. To set a time just for myself and my (almost forgotten) hobbies.

Yesterday I read Andrea’s post on How to let go and commented on that post how I love the feeling when I realize that it is easy to let things go and just do it. To just drop it. Andrea replied to me through email with one single word: yes!  That one single word just took all the heavy thoughts off from my shoulders and at that moment I knew that I did the right thing. I let go of the need to do what everyone else expects me to do and just did what I felt was right. I just dropped all the negative guilty thoughts. And it felt good.

I am far from being perfect but I’m getting more closer to be real.